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Posted On Friday, February 29th, 2008 By Re

With the five computers that are hooked up in some form or another to get into my internet assess makes my head spin. It is not wireless, so a lot of the time we leech from other people but then I am dealing with here and not fully understanding that this place will stil be living. I was told that when my host was not able to pay for his hosting, that they shut it down but.. This is not true. I a scared. Throw my hands in the area, tracing back and forth for emergency domain spots. This computer alone is dying. I see the burnt out pixels dancing in the screen. The hard shifts of different letters making no fucking sense at all.This is just making me want a new fucking computer soon. Then I just bitch because I have no abililty to do that. Medications for my brain are more important. To get what both my doctor and I want me to be one because we knows it works means we have to medically prove all the othoptions will not work for me. Meaning. My own fucking government is making me a fucking guinea pig 1st world Continue Reading

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As we say goodbye

Posted On Wednesday, February 6th, 2008 By Re

In the past week I have said good bye to four important people to me. I will see them all again within time. First was my boyfriend where we drove down to the Seattle area on Sunday to meet up with his cousin (how he and I met) to hang out one last time for a few months. We went to a dive pub to play pool as I sat back watching the winter X-games. My shoulder was hurting too much to play. At the last moment I decided to say good bye to him at the airport with her as she was going to drive because of my mind set. I sat in the back of her mini-cooper holding his hand from the front seat the whole ride to the airport. A few tears escaped from my eyes as I watched Seattle’s scenery pass us by.
He kept caressing my hand and playing with the promise ring he gave me the prior week. Faded smiles came to me as he did that. I still look at the ring right now and a small smile still forms upon my face. We rushed to the departure lanes and unloaded his baggage. We Continue Reading